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Friday, April 30, 2010

The Countdown Begins....well....

As of today, I have 19 days of school, not including the week I have to do assessments on all 27 students! This year has been a wild roller coaster and I have learned so much about my profession and myself (both personally and as a teacher). Lets just hope I can make it to the end!
Thanks to you all for being there to offer support and guidance!
Happy Mothers Day, Memorial Day, and Happy Birthday to my Mom!

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Biggest Loser

I am sitting here in my workout clothes watching The Biggest Loser. I am having some mixed feelings as I watch it. I don't know about you but I am really connecting with these people.
I am especially connecting with Victoria and Andrea. I don't feel like I am worth it to lose weight, to be happy, to be successful, or to have friends. I feel like my family deserves a better person, a more beautiful person than me.
As the contestants were mentioning these things they really hit me....straight in the heart. I have tried to hide those feelings and mask them...hence why I am where I am. It sucks and I am still working on figuring out how to deal with these feelings and where to vent my frustrations, stresses, and all my emotions. Instead of eating them away or just holding them in I need to find a more constructive way to get them out so I don't implode.
I guess you could take this as a cry for help or just complaining. I thought I would share my feelings about what was said on the BL.
I want to be proud of myself and I want my family to be proud of me. I want to have friends!
There are alot of things I need to work through and I think these things are the weights holding me back from being happy, healthy, and allowing the thin me to shine.

Be the best you can be!
(I guess I should take my own advice!)